Friday, March 25, 2011

A Bit Overwhelmed

So I just realized tonight that 4 whole days have past and I haven't posted.  I could tell you everything that has happened in the last 4 days of my life.....unemployed husband, living with my parents, helping care for my dad who has cancer, 5 children the age of 7 and under, van in the shop....where would I begin?
Actually, this is my normal life...I have begun to accept life as it is.  Some days I really just have to sit back and laugh and I catch myself saying, "what next Lord?"  I don't say that in a sarcastic, disrespectful way, but knowing that God will not give me more than I can bare.  I really have to remind myself of that pretty often these days.  Sometimes there seems to be no hope in site or no way to fix the problem at hand.  Then, I am reminded that is exactly where God wants me to be...humble and open to what he is trying to teach me.  So, rather than be upset in my circumstances I can rejoice knowing that God is working in my life.

1 comment:

  1. Aw Erin, I'm praying for you and your family. We went through such a hard time the first two years of our marriage. My Dad's cancer took a terrible turn for the worst, we were sharing a car that eventually was wrecked and we had to borrow a 25 year old car from a family friend that took a quart of oil a day (seriously!). We had unwisely let a family member borrow a large amount of money that they then wouldn't pay back and it was so, so very hard. On our way home from the hospital when Samuel was born we didn't even have enough money to put gas in our car to make it home. Our church fell apart and we were left so very hurt.

    I couldn't understand any of it. I came from a rather well off family and I didn't really know what it was like to live that way. Instead of living in grace as you are I chose to become very angry. It made everything so much harder than it had to be. I'm still coming out of that awful place. My heart is hurting for you, but I'm thankful that you're redeeming this time for good. Praying for all of you and cheering you on.